Pangarap na Pilit Aabutin..

Meron akong daan-daang dahilan kung bakit ko kinuha ang kursong Mass Communication. Una, pangarap kong maging Brodkaster. Pangalawa, alam kong dito ako magaling. Kung sa pagsayaw at pagkanta, wala akong talent, sa larangan ng pamamahayag, alam kong may ibubuga ko. Kaya nga ako nagpakahirap na pagsabayin ang pag-aaral at trabaho. Kasi gusto kong matapos ang kursong pinangarap ko. 

Ngayong graduate na ko, naiinis ako sa lipunang ginagalawan ko. Gusto ko man sila murahin isa-isa, idadaan ko na lang sa pagsulat. Maraming nagsasabi, "Sayang ang pinag-aralan kung sa call center ka lang babagsak." Para bang ang laking kasalanan kapag nag-call center ako. Kung ako ang masusunod, siyempre gusto kong makakuha ng trabaho sa larangang pinag-aralan ko. Ang problema kasi, hindi sumasang-ayon sa akin ang ihip ng panahon. At sigurado akong hindi lang sa akin.

Paulit-ulit kong naririnig, "Wag kang mag-stay sa trabaho na di ka masaya." Ang sagot ko naman diyan, tiis tiis lang. Hindi naman porket sa call center ako ngayon, dito na ko habang buhay. Sa hirap ng buhay ngayon, HINDI MASAMA ANG MAGING PRAKTIKAL. 

Marami akong PANGARAP sa buhay. At hindi ako titigil hangga't di ko naaabot lahat ng iyon. Kanya kanyang diskarte lang yan. Kung milyonarya lang ako, agad-agad akong mag-aapply sa Media. Kahit gaano pa kaliit ang sweldo walang problema sa'kin. Kaso may mga responsibilidad akong dapat gampanan. Ayokong dumating sa punto na manghihingi ako ng baon sa magulang ko dahil nakapos ako sa sweldo.

Ang pananatili ko sa call center ay hindi hangganan ng mga pangarap ko. Malay natin, sa susunod na araw, o sa susunod na buwan, o sa susunod na taon, nasa Media na rin ako. At sinisiguro kong hindi ako titigil hangga't di ko nararating lahat ng gusto kong maabot sa buhay.

Gaya ng palagi kong sinasabi, "Passion can wait but a living for my family can't."

Sa mga taong sumusuporta pa rin sa'kin, MARAMING SALAMAT.

Sa mga taong nawalan na ng tiwala sa kakayahan ko, ipapakain ko sa inyo lahat ng mga sinasabi niyong hanggang dito na lang ako. Panoorin niyo ang magiging pag-asenso ko sa buhay.

The time has come - Graduation Day! :)

Ever since I was a kid, I've always been a fan of studying. I love going to school and indeed, it has been my second home. Even though life didn't become easy and money was so hard to earn that I have to work, it didn't stop me to continue schooling. And after 16 long years of studying, I finally graduated from college this 11th of April 2012 and I'm now a certified degree holder of Mass Communication Major in Broadcast.

Words can never be enough to define the happiness that I have in my heart. In fact, I couldn't afford to even ask for a graduation gift as I feel like I've been blessed with so much in life. I can still clearly remember when my name was called, my heart was filled with so much joy that smiles couldn't even be enough to show my happiness.

On that very special day, after so many years, I saw Mama and Papa together again. No fighting, no shouting, no arguments, just happiness and love. I even saw them laughing together as I walk down on stage. PRICELESS.

I've been asked several times by so many people, "Bat ang sipag mo? San ka nakakakuha ng lakas na mag-aral at magtrabaho ng sabay? Pano mo yan nagagawa?" It's all because of Mama and Papa. They've always been proud of everything that I do and I know that being a Degree Holder would probably be the best gift that I could give them. Indeed, they have raised me so well. Even if they separated when I was 8, they didn't fail to show and give me unconditional love. Because of them, I have a clear view of what life and love is all about.

I have no words to express my deepest gratitude to all the people who helped me to come this far in life and for all who those who loved and supported me. Thank you Lord! :)

Congratulations Batch 2012!!!!

To be friends again..

It's Saturday and I have no classes because it's Holiday and I have all the time in the world to do anything I want. I was surfing on the net awhile ago and I've seen so many pictures from the past. ( Blame it on facebook timeline). I really am just so glad that things are doing much better now. And that includes me being a better person.

I saw the picture of the person I USED to love the most. Way back, it was still very painful to me realizing that we're not together anymore. But today, it's totally a different feeling. I was smiling and happy. I'm just glad because I know he's very much happier now. I'm happy because I can see that we are now crossing the paths that's leading us to a better life.

Now I know that forgiveness comes in time and not always right away. And I guess this is the moment for that. I know I was able to hurt him really bad too, and God knows how sorry I am for causing him pain.

I have forgiven him even without him asking for it. It's been three years since we last spoke and since we last saw each other. Letting go of him has been really hard. It took me years just to move on but now, I am totally healed. 

I'm looking forward for the day wherein we could sit down, catch up and laugh about the stuff that made us cry before. I'm certain we could be able to do it because from what I see, we're now matured individuals. MATURED and BETTER individuals. I know God has a perfect timing. A timing for us to be friends again. Just the way it used to be before. #08 

Goodbye 2011. Hello 2012! :)

This year has been one of the craziest years of my life. My schedule has been loaded because of my work, on-the-job training and school schedule. I've experienced things I thought I couldn't surpass but I did. I'm able to adjust with my very busy schedule. I'm still alive and breathing despite the fact that I don't get enough sleep every single day. In short, I survived another battle in my life.

This year, I still have the same hopes and dreams. To finish college, pursue my dream of being a broadcaster. To have a new love. Give my mom all comforts in life. To lose weight and a looooot more. But this time, if there's one thing that I will do, it is to STRIVE HARDER.

It's not that I'm not working hard, I am. But I know deep within myself that I have so much more to offer. I know I can do better. And I won't stop bringing out the best in me because I know that it is one of the many ways for me to be where I wanna be. 

Despite all negativity that surrounds me, I choose to stay positive. In fact, I welcomed 2012 with a big smile and a happy heart because I have to keep moving forward towards my DREAMS.

This 2012, I am very certain that there is nothing in this world that I cannot do. I know because I BELIEVE. :)

Someday, I'll be a Broadcast Journalist..

       I have high respect for broadcasters and journalists who are determined enough to know the TRUTH behind every single story.

        With this article, there was a statement that moved me as a Mass Communication student. “We asked our journalists to go after the most critical voices and to get the worst evidence against ABS-CBN they could find. Treat the story as if we aren’t ABS-CBN because we are journalists first.”

        This is one of the attitudes that all aspiring broadcasters and journalists should obtain, the courage to broadcast what is RIGHT, giving news to people fairly without any form of being bias. The strength to face TRUTH without even covering big names of people involved in a certain situation.

        I strongly believe that once you got the chance to be part of media industry, your main responsibility is to SERVE the people. Serve the NATION. Provide them the things that they deserve and need to know. It’s not your responsibility to please your Bosses. People rely on whatever information media will be providing. People deserve to know the TRUTH behind every single story.

        I remembered the time when I was told by my professor, “Media can make or break a nation.” This statement proves how powerful media is. But we should use this power to educate people and give them the sense of awareness within the things that are happening in our country.

        It is a lot easier for me to say this simply because I’m not in the position. But this is one of the things that I wish to have someday, the courage and strength to broadcast what is RIGHT. I want to be someone from the media industry who writes or reports without covering any faces. I want to reveal all dirty faces behind every mask of whoever is hiding from it.

        This is one of the things that I will bear in mind if ever I’ll be given a chance to be part of media, “We are journalists first.” A very short statement but contains a message that everyone in media should be aware of.

        I guess there are certain things that we need to do in order to be successful in this field. We need to set aside personal interests or intentions and serve the people and nation TRUTHFULLY. No matter if it includes taking risks because that is our responsibility, provide news even if sometimes it includes danger to our own lives.

         In my perception as a Mass Communication student, the deeper meaning of Broadcast means to deliver information with heart and all fairness, to provide REAL score behind every story without taking any sides and to be determined enough not to cover anyone’s mask.

        When I graduate in this chosen field of mine, I’ll do my very best to possess the above traits that I have mentioned and I will use it to serve my fellowmen. Because I know by heart, that these attitudes define the meaning of a real “Journalist”.

One thing I'll never ever do in my LIFE..

People nowadays are being so selfish and insensitive and I seriously mean it. Especially when it comes to relationships. I hate it when a lovely couple is being separated by another woman or man. Well I know for a fact that this has been a looonnnggg time issue but it seems to be so "ON" nowadays even if it's not right.

Maybe the reason why I'm so affected is because I know how it feels to be cheated on, to be dumped like garbage and I swear to God, it really is painful.

I know because I've experienced this twice. It happened when my dad found a new woman to love. Which led my parents to have separate ways. Then it happened AGAIN when my ex boyfriend dumped me for another woman.

I just really find it cheap, unethical and pathetic. One thing that I will never ever do, steal someone else's HAPPINESS. It will never be my attitude to ruin a relationship just for the sake of being happy.

It's Christmas for Starbucksssss! :)

I've always been excited for Starbucks planner every year. Let's just say I'm an addict. And it's like getting a "special reward" from my addiction. :) Just this morning, it's their first day of releasing promo cards. And at 6.45 in the morning, I was outside waiting for SB to open. :) And TADUHHH, I now have my Christmas Tradition promo card. I should say that today's gonna be a good good day! :) First, I had my promo card on their 1st day already. Second, it's my last day at work tonight and last but not the least, I had my usual rituals this morning.

You know what it is? Stay at Starbucks, have my favorite drink, sit, relax, stare at people and wonder what's on their minds. I love doing all of these ALONE. It allows me to be free even just for a couple of hours. I always feel happy everytime they start to release promo cards, it makes me feel Christmas Spirit.

And I LOOVVEE holidays. It's a time for love, hope, happiness and forgiveness. I'm just really happy this morning, hope this will last all through out the day!

PS: One thing that added to my happiness today was the barista who got my order. HANDSOMEEE! Happy Morning everyone. Spread LOVE! :)