For a good friend

I had a conversation with a friend whom I have caused so much pain way back in college.

And today, I realize that people move on and heal in their own time. No matter how short or long it may take. That you can't force them to be okay immediately. You can't tell them the steps to move on. You can't tell what needs to be done. Because we heal in our own ways. Our own hearts are the ones who will decide if we are bound to be okay again.

My heart wishes him well. And that's the basic thing you could hope for a friend. :)

My 21st..

 Peaceful time with my family was all I wanted for my 21st. But as the saying goes, life doesn't always turn out the way you want it to be. It may not be what I originally wanted, but it was way beyond better. Thanks to my fab fam and friends who exerted effort in making my 21st special.

This year has been a roller coaster ride. I was on top for some time then suddenly I realized I was at my lowest point. Most of the time I was in the middle of diversity. I have hopes and desires that I choose to keep inside me. I hurt a lot of people. I learned how to forgive and move forward. I learned how to be happy with little things.

I know I got a lot of learning to make. I still have dreams that I need to chase. Love that I am looking forward to share with someone, someday. I still have to aspire bigger things for my family. Patience that I need to showcase for people around me. Happiness to share with friends.

Though I still have a lot of learning to do, I am grateful that I have family and friends who choose to love me even when I'm up, down, or in between.

Break..

It's been awhile since I last saw my college friends. Been tied up at work and was pre-occupied with different stuff. There are times wherein I chose to be distant from them just a bit as I have my personal reasons. Reasons that should be kept within myself only so as to avoid hurting others. It's a battle that I've been struggling to fight every now and then. I was running away from my fear and it suddenly showed up right in front of my face. I realized that people are suffering in their own ways. And I got no right to cause them additional pain because I love them. People always say "We always hurt the ones we love." But not this time, I've caused pain too much and that's enough. I realized that I am still lucky, way beyond blessed I should say.

It's good to have a little "break" from stress and life every once in awhile. And it's nice to do it with people you value. With people who know you so well and understand every inch of your mood swings. This is the kind of bond that will tie us back altogether. No matter where life takes each and everyone of us and even if the going gets tough, it's still going to be "US".

Lalalalaloveeee Youuuuuu! :)

Life at work was never easy. But she made it a lot easierrrrrr for me. She understands why I'm mean and why I love to hate people. HAHAHA. She gets it when I don't feel like being friendly and even when I don't feel like smiling. I don't have to explain, she just GETS it. I love how she laughs when I complain, complain, complain about school,  the swimming team, and school paper. I love her even if it pisses me off when she imitates how I speak! :DDD

We have the same perceptions about life and love. Others may not understand the way we think and how we view things, but that's how we roll. She believes in me and she has always been proud of everything that I do.

I will miss you Ate! PUH-ROOOOMISE. Good thing we have the same station so I'll just leave you a note anytime I want to. :) I LOVE YOUUUUU Childish! :))))))))))))))