How I was Raised

At 21, I've seen so many broken relationships. I've seen people shed so many tears. I've seen people who have been destroyed by love. And sometimes I get scared. Witnessing these hardened me to not fall in love. Hardened me to be wiser in love. But in the end, I realize I will always go back to how I was raised, and that is to know that love is always awe-inspiring. Whether it's full or broken or shattered, it's still love and it will always have a memory of being wonderful.

Dreams

People may be a lot different from one another but at the end of a long and tiring day, we all want the same things, admit it or not, that is to love and be loved back. May it be someone special or love from family. Whatever it is. Sometimes, when it seems like this is quite impossible to happen, atleast not yet, God is making it happen on our dreams. Not to make us feel that it won't ever happen. But he gives us a glimpse of how wonderful it is to experience the magic and spark of being loved. He allows us to foresee the possibilities that life will be showering us in the future.

So I'll hold on. I'll wait. I don't know how much time and patience do I still have to showcase but I will be reserving a very special space for that someone, in God's time. :)

Single and Happy yet Hopeful. :)

My life is doing pretty good right now. Yes, I've been through a looooot. But here I am, stronger as ever. Others say I'm an over achiever. They wonder how I manage to accomplish different things at school while working. I just give them a big smile everytime they say those things.

Others think I have everything in my hands and they say that the only thing missing is a boyfriend. They keep on pushing, teasing and forcing me to have a boyfriend. Yes, I get jealous sometimes when I'm surrounded with couples. But I'm happy. Seriously. 

I just don't wanna settle for anyone who's around because I know in my heart, that I deserve so much more. I deserve a love that is willing to risk everything for me because I'm worth it. I've been single for quite some time now but I won't bother staying single for another more months or years as I know that there are no shortcuts in meeting someone who is destined for you. No shortcuts for someone who is worth having.

It's a cliche to say this but maybe, God is still really writing my love story. And If I would be single for another year, that won't definitely hurt. I bet it will give me an opportunity to grow and learn more. Just like what I have learned for the past two years that I'm single.

Whoever he might be, I know he'll find me. Or should I say, we will find each other. I know our souls will meet one of these days. And I will patiently wait. :)))))))))

Mkaye's Brand New Heart...

Last night, before I sleep, I had my daily conversation with God. I'm certain that He knows what I have been wishing for all these years. Because I believe, he listens. I always ask him if my prince charming is on his way already. :)


Being single for two years gave me a different kind of happiness that I guess, I won't completely have if I'm with someone. It brought me to a deeper kind of relationship with my family and friends. And it made me a stronger person. It erased all the pain and bitterness that I had in my heart my before. Now I know, forgiveness comes in time and not always right away.


Now, I feel like my heart is brand new and ready to love again. It's ready to love without being afraid of getting hurt. Because this heart of mine knows, that if in case it gets broken again, I know how to handle it better this time and I know that God will always find  a way to make my broken heart heal.


I'm not being in a a hurry, whoever he may be, wherever he is right now, I am very certain that our paths will cross one of these days. I won't get tired of waiting. I won't stop from praying. I know God will grant my wish when it's destined for me to have it. :)